I am trying for a new start. I hope. I just cant do it though. Its too hard. We will see. I guess I have expended all credability on this account. But this is real human emotion meant. All of it is. So how can one regret much? Ask yourself that.

Long story short I am dying...On the inside. I am 21 and already I have never been loved. Been kissed by someone who didn't really mean it. She uses me for many other reasons not to do with real love. Its too hard for me. I have suffered too much in one half a life time...
My sister almost dying, and being stuck where I am make me want to throw in the towel. I have been ignored my whole life. No more. Someday I Will make headlines. In the obits. My finest hour. people will actually remember me AND ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN.